And so my blogging career begins

I am an avid blog reader of things like cjane enjoy it and nie nie dialogues.  I read these blogs and think I have no clue where to start or what to write about, I'm not that creative.  So with that I just vicariously lived through others abilities to blog!  This all until September 3, 2010! 

As some of you know my mom passed away on that day. ( It also happens to be my husbands birthday)  I began to think...and think...and think!!  This can be quite annoying at midnight or even 3am; lets be honest here too much thinking in the middle of the day can be down right frustrating!  So as I lay in bed tonight it dawned on me that I should write it all down!  Why store it in my head, is it really doing anyone good up there?? I know it's not helping me any!  So here I sit at 10:24pm spilling my  guts!

Let's see I'll start with my title choice!  I lost my father when I was 17 years old.  A man I never had much feeling for.  To me he was never the Leave it to Beaver kind of guy.  I did okay when he passed, no real love loss persay!  So when my mom became worse and I knew we didn't have much longer I began to think....There goes that again!  I realized that I would have no parents at the age of 30 (well almost 30 since my bday is in January).  I would be an orphan!!!  Is that even possible when your married and have a child? Good question!  But here I sit feeling like an orphan!  And with that came a title to a blog to which I hope to add many more days!  I want to write it all out and then go back and see how I have grown over time!  I think my head is clear enough now that I could try and sleep! 

I will attempt to write daily to hopefully make myself feel better!  Until then good night!!